Ranting is Fun But i hate it because it Hurts people. But Iam going to be Proud that I pray, that sounds stuck up. And i usually never write like this, so you might get a sense for what some of my journaling is like. Any way. I have friends that completely disagree with my spiritual life, with my morals and the way i live, just differences of opinion they would call them. But i all ways get Hurt by there differences, some say celebrate while it feels like a cage. They say Create and i feel the word Berate. I , … i love them, my friends are apart of me, and they tell me to accept them for who they for the what the world settles for. I accept them I love them, not there sin, there sin makes me cry as i watch them sink into the sand. There heads trying to find air, while there just hiding behind there Beautiful Hair. I miss them and I want to be with them, and they dont even realize that they some times hurt me, harder then i thought they could. And i still want them. I still want them to be my friends with me forever. And yet they say i offend them with what i know to be peace. And if I pray then shame I see on the lines of there eyes that are shot my way. And i cry and i seek arms to be held in. Because whatever i do or i say, they say STop STOP Get AWay. And i stop talking I stop singing and calling out to them my friends. But i still stand here, tears falling like little drops of rain and i just want them to be held, if not by me by some one. Because they reject the Love i have for them not all ways, but in waves. I am like a tiny little island timid and shy, shaking and worrying that i will quake and sink and die. Thinking of the trickle of Life that some how flows inside, that i dont deserve and that I Love and that I want to Hug. I want to Hug you. So i will not be ashamed of you, I will not hold you back, iam not going to not pray, just because they dont know the color black. Iam not going to stand in silence and just be me. Because iam not, iam you and that makes company, peace and serenity. And so I Stand and I Pray, Make me Love with Truth more then just to day.